chapter 1
I am standing on the stupid hill next to that crazy cannon and watching a game. Goddam, it's freezing my ass!!
Actually I am not supposed to be here since I was kicked out of the school, but I don't know why, TBH it's very important to feel some kind of good-bye for me no matter how is it. #good-by
I want to see Mr. Spencer, I ran all the way to the main gate that make me feel breathless. It was really frozen!! @ Mr. Spencer
It was Mrs. Spencer open the door, I think she has already heard the thing about I got kicked out. - -
Actually I am not supposed to be here since I was kicked out of the school, but I don't know why, TBH it's very important to feel some kind of good-bye for me no matter how is it. #good-by
I want to see Mr. Spencer, I ran all the way to the main gate that make me feel breathless. It was really frozen!! @ Mr. Spencer
It was Mrs. Spencer open the door, I think she has already heard the thing about I got kicked out. - -
chapter 2
To be polite I knocked the door although the door was open. Mr. Spencer yelled my name like he always does.
#Mr. Spencer
The room is.....make me feel depressing. I don't know how to describe my feeling when I see Old Spencer was in pajamas and bathrobes. #depress
Old Spencer said " Life is a game. Life is a game that one plays according to the rules." #Life is a game
Oh, boy! What did I hear? Grand. I almost puke when I heard it, it's so phony!! # phony #grand
I am almost crazy. Now it is the third time I heard "Absolutely nothing" from Old Spencer 's month!!!!
I don't want to sit there and listen to that crap any more.
He read out loud my little note on the page. He just read me that crap out loud!!!!
I am tired of this conversation. I left.
#Mr. Spencer
The room is.....make me feel depressing. I don't know how to describe my feeling when I see Old Spencer was in pajamas and bathrobes. #depress
Old Spencer said " Life is a game. Life is a game that one plays according to the rules." #Life is a game
Oh, boy! What did I hear? Grand. I almost puke when I heard it, it's so phony!! # phony #grand
I am almost crazy. Now it is the third time I heard "Absolutely nothing" from Old Spencer 's month!!!!
I don't want to sit there and listen to that crap any more.
He read out loud my little note on the page. He just read me that crap out loud!!!!
I am tired of this conversation. I left.
chapter 3
I went back to my room and put on my red hunting hat which I bought in New York.
I am reading #Out of Africa, this book really knock me out.
Here comes #Robert Ackley who roomed right next to me with lousy teeth. TBH i wasn't too crazy about him. #lousy
When you are reading, someone stand right in your goddam light, what's your feeling? @Ackley
For Chrissake! #Ackley is still cutting his crumby nails out of the table!!!!
#Old Stradlater is back.
I am reading #Out of Africa, this book really knock me out.
Here comes #Robert Ackley who roomed right next to me with lousy teeth. TBH i wasn't too crazy about him. #lousy
When you are reading, someone stand right in your goddam light, what's your feeling? @Ackley
For Chrissake! #Ackley is still cutting his crumby nails out of the table!!!!
#Old Stradlater is back.
chapter 4
#Stradlater is whistling "Song of India" again. I can't understand why he always pick out some songs that's hard to whistle. #whistler
I admit Stradlater is pretty handsome, but I knew him, he is a #secret slot.
Goddam composition! Don't stick all the commas and stuff in the right place!!! Why I need to flunking out if the goddam place and help u with your English! #composition
Have u heard about tap-dancing? It's a stone floor in the can and it's so good for tap-dancing! #tap-dancing
Je-sus Christ! Strandlater's date is Jean Gallagher!
I remembered I used to play checkers with Jane all the time and she wouldn't move any of her kings. @Jane
I admit Stradlater is pretty handsome, but I knew him, he is a #secret slot.
Goddam composition! Don't stick all the commas and stuff in the right place!!! Why I need to flunking out if the goddam place and help u with your English! #composition
Have u heard about tap-dancing? It's a stone floor in the can and it's so good for tap-dancing! #tap-dancing
Je-sus Christ! Strandlater's date is Jean Gallagher!
I remembered I used to play checkers with Jane all the time and she wouldn't move any of her kings. @Jane
chapter 5
We ate these little hard, dry jobs that you could hardly even cut steak on Saturday again. @Pency
Brossard, Ackley and I just had some hamburgers and played the pinball machines for a while and backed to the dorm.
Je-sus Christ Ackely, just don't lay down on my bed and put your goddam face right on my pillow! @Ackley
I can't find any of a room or a house can describe the way Stradlater said he had to have so I chose to write about my brother #Allie and baseball gloves.
Brossard, Ackley and I just had some hamburgers and played the pinball machines for a while and backed to the dorm.
Je-sus Christ Ackely, just don't lay down on my bed and put your goddam face right on my pillow! @Ackley
I can't find any of a room or a house can describe the way Stradlater said he had to have so I chose to write about my brother #Allie and baseball gloves.
chapter 6
I showed Stradlater his gaddam composition is on his bed, he read it, sort of stroking his bare chest and stomach with stupid expression on his face.
So what! You said you need a description, it doesn't matter if it's a baseball gloves. @Stradlater
I smoked, just for annoying #Stradlater. He never allowed others to break rules, I know smoking will make him crazy!
I hate u! @Stradlater
So what! You said you need a description, it doesn't matter if it's a baseball gloves. @Stradlater
I smoked, just for annoying #Stradlater. He never allowed others to break rules, I know smoking will make him crazy!
I hate u! @Stradlater
chapter 7
I laid down on Ely's bed. Boy, I just feel damn lonesome. #lonely
I knew about #Stradlater, he is not the guy who just talks about sexual intercourse, he really did it. I can't imagine what did he do to Jane! #sexual
I remembered once we double-dated. I remembered clearly what did he do to his date. I just can't stop thinking about Jane and Stradlater. That's killing me. # double-date #Jane
How about I leave the school right now!
I found these brand new ice skates my mother gave me. That make me feel depressed. #depressed
I knew about #Stradlater, he is not the guy who just talks about sexual intercourse, he really did it. I can't imagine what did he do to Jane! #sexual
I remembered once we double-dated. I remembered clearly what did he do to his date. I just can't stop thinking about Jane and Stradlater. That's killing me. # double-date #Jane
How about I leave the school right now!
I found these brand new ice skates my mother gave me. That make me feel depressed. #depressed
chapter 8
Why there is no cab in the street!
It's freezing outside, it made my nose hurt. # cold
I think i may take the train. Luckily it's not too far from here. #train station
A lady just sat beside me. There are so many empty seats, why she just choose the seat next to me? #train
Can you believe that, the lady is #Ernest Morrow's mother, on of the biggest bastard ever went to Pency.
I can't believe your mom is a smoker! @Morrow
I said there is a tiny little tumor on the brain. I admit I am always a liar.
It's freezing outside, it made my nose hurt. # cold
I think i may take the train. Luckily it's not too far from here. #train station
A lady just sat beside me. There are so many empty seats, why she just choose the seat next to me? #train
Can you believe that, the lady is #Ernest Morrow's mother, on of the biggest bastard ever went to Pency.
I can't believe your mom is a smoker! @Morrow
I said there is a tiny little tumor on the brain. I admit I am always a liar.
chapter 9
I got off the train. I want to call somebody but who can I call? Brother D.B or my sister Phoebe? No one will answer my phone. #lonely
How about Sally? No, her mother knows my mother, she never likes me. #Sally Hayes #Mrs. Hayes
I always interested about where will the ducks in that lagoon right near Central Park South when the lake gets all frozen over? #ducks
I hate #corny but when you meet somebody that is corny, you have to act corny, too.
The room crumby. No views just the hotel. @Edmont Hotel
What's your feeling when you see a sixty-five old man carry others suitcase and wait around for the tip?
Oh boy, can you believe a man dressed like a women and act like a women?
I think I must be the only normal bastard guy in this hotel.
I decided to give a buzz to Faith Cavendish.
How about Sally? No, her mother knows my mother, she never likes me. #Sally Hayes #Mrs. Hayes
I always interested about where will the ducks in that lagoon right near Central Park South when the lake gets all frozen over? #ducks
I hate #corny but when you meet somebody that is corny, you have to act corny, too.
The room crumby. No views just the hotel. @Edmont Hotel
What's your feeling when you see a sixty-five old man carry others suitcase and wait around for the tip?
Oh boy, can you believe a man dressed like a women and act like a women?
I think I must be the only normal bastard guy in this hotel.
I decided to give a buzz to Faith Cavendish.
chapter 10
I introduced my little sister Phoebe. She is the smartest and prettiest girl i ever saw.
I remembered Allie and I used to take Phoebe to park. I miss those times. @Phoebe
I really want to call Phoebe and tell her everything but I can't imagine if the one who answer the phone are my parents. That will kill me.
Let me teach you a thing, in #New York, money really talks.
The blond one who dance with me, I can say she is really a dancer. #Bernice
Why they thought they probably can meet some movie stars when they came to New York?
I remembered Allie and I used to take Phoebe to park. I miss those times. @Phoebe
I really want to call Phoebe and tell her everything but I can't imagine if the one who answer the phone are my parents. That will kill me.
Let me teach you a thing, in #New York, money really talks.
The blond one who dance with me, I can say she is really a dancer. #Bernice
Why they thought they probably can meet some movie stars when they came to New York?
chapter 11
There is one person I still couldn't get off my head. @ Jane
Eight balls! I remember in that afternoon she lost 8 balls. # golf # Jane
The girl I like best are the ones I never feel much like kidding.
Do you remember we wouldn't quilt holding hands till the movie was over? @Jane
Don't you think funny when a young girl putting her hand on the back of somebody's neck?
Eight balls! I remember in that afternoon she lost 8 balls. # golf # Jane
The girl I like best are the ones I never feel much like kidding.
Do you remember we wouldn't quilt holding hands till the movie was over? @Jane
Don't you think funny when a young girl putting her hand on the back of somebody's neck?
chapter 12
It makes me feel terrible when I heard someone laugh in the street at night. # lonely # depress
Is there anybody know where are the ducks in the wintertime? # lagoon
I asked the taxi driver about the ducks, hell that makes him so damn excited and all.
Old Ernie was playing the piano.
Is there anybody know where are the ducks in the wintertime? # lagoon
I asked the taxi driver about the ducks, hell that makes him so damn excited and all.
Old Ernie was playing the piano.
chapter 13
It;s freezing cold but there is hardly any snow on the sidewalk.
I have a terrific capacity, drink all night and not even show up.
Smelling the fifty million dead cigars in the lobby, i felt lousy.
I met one guy at the elevator and asked me about little tail thing.
I want to stop but it is already too late.
I have a terrific capacity, drink all night and not even show up.
Smelling the fifty million dead cigars in the lobby, i felt lousy.
I met one guy at the elevator and asked me about little tail thing.
I want to stop but it is already too late.
chapter 14
I couldn't pray worth a damn. I kept picturing old Sunny calling me a crumb-bum when I got started.
Old Sunny and the elevator guy standing in front of my door.
He was a huge sonuvabitch! He gave me a big shove with his curmby hand.
The elevator guy snapped his finger very hard on my pajamas, it's hurt like a hell!
Old Sunny and the elevator guy standing in front of my door.
He was a huge sonuvabitch! He gave me a big shove with his curmby hand.
The elevator guy snapped his finger very hard on my pajamas, it's hurt like a hell!
chapter 15
I really want to call someone.
I hate #"Grand", it's so phony.
I just saw two nuns maybe they were moving to another convent.
I remember #Dick Slagle they guy i once roomed kept his cheap suitcase under the bed so that nobody can see it, it depressed holy hell out of me. #depress #suitcase
Bourgeois is his favorite goddam word. @Dick Slagle
I gave two nuns 10 bucks as the contribution.
I hate #"Grand", it's so phony.
I just saw two nuns maybe they were moving to another convent.
I remember #Dick Slagle they guy i once roomed kept his cheap suitcase under the bed so that nobody can see it, it depressed holy hell out of me. #depress #suitcase
Bourgeois is his favorite goddam word. @Dick Slagle
I gave two nuns 10 bucks as the contribution.
chapter 16
If Sally Haye's mother do the distribution, Jesus Christ the only way she will do is to kiss her ass and made a contribution.
I want to buy a record called"Little Shirley Beans". Anyone who knows where I can find it? It's a hard record to get.
A family is walking in front of me, mother, father and a little kid. It's a nice view.
"If a body catch a body coming through the rye"
Hopefully I can Phoebe in the park.
I was so lucky the first record store I went in has the copy.
The queen of the phonies Old Sally must like the show I Know My Love.
I want to buy a record called"Little Shirley Beans". Anyone who knows where I can find it? It's a hard record to get.
A family is walking in front of me, mother, father and a little kid. It's a nice view.
"If a body catch a body coming through the rye"
Hopefully I can Phoebe in the park.
I was so lucky the first record store I went in has the copy.
The queen of the phonies Old Sally must like the show I Know My Love.
chapter 17
What the hell would happen I saw millions of girls sitting the standing around waiting their date shoe up depress.
I really don't understand boring guys.
Harris Macklin the guy I roomed with in Elkton Hill who can always say thing I don't want to hear boring.
Finally, I heard Sally coming upstairs.
God. I felt like I was in love with Sally.
Just like I thought before, she got mad when she heard if was for Lunts.
I really don't understand boring guys.
Harris Macklin the guy I roomed with in Elkton Hill who can always say thing I don't want to hear boring.
Finally, I heard Sally coming upstairs.
God. I felt like I was in love with Sally.
Just like I thought before, she got mad when she heard if was for Lunts.
chapter 18
How could Jane date a show off bastard like Al Pike
I really want to give someone a buzz but there were 3 people in my address book.
Caul Luce maybe is a good choice to give a buzz.
The goddam picture was so putrid.
There was a lady sitting next to me cried all through the goddam picture.
I am still think about the war. I think take you out or shoot you isn't bad, have to stayed in Army so long is the poor thing.
I liked Ring Landner and the Great Gasby.
I really want to give someone a buzz but there were 3 people in my address book.
Caul Luce maybe is a good choice to give a buzz.
The goddam picture was so putrid.
There was a lady sitting next to me cried all through the goddam picture.
I am still think about the war. I think take you out or shoot you isn't bad, have to stayed in Army so long is the poor thing.
I liked Ring Landner and the Great Gasby.
chapter 19
Old Janine always whisper into goddam microphone before she sang and then sing some dopey song.
A guy supposed to be student advision but the only thing he did is about sex talk.
Old Luce is the one who know the most about sex I know.
He can easily tell who is flits and lesbians.
A guy supposed to be student advision but the only thing he did is about sex talk.
Old Luce is the one who know the most about sex I know.
He can easily tell who is flits and lesbians.
chapter 20
I don’t know why but today is not Tina and Janie who play the piano and sang, it’s Valencia and another flitty-looking guy with wavy hair.
People never give your message to anyone.
Boy, I sat on that goddam bar till around one o’clock or so, getting drunk as a bastard.
Boy, I couldn’t see straight.
Boy, was I blind. I dial about 20 numbers before I got the right one. #drunk
It’s a funny thing, I always #shiver like hell when I am drunk.
People never give your message to anyone.
Boy, I sat on that goddam bar till around one o’clock or so, getting drunk as a bastard.
Boy, I couldn’t see straight.
Boy, was I blind. I dial about 20 numbers before I got the right one. #drunk
It’s a funny thing, I always #shiver like hell when I am drunk.
chapter 21
The elevator guy was sort of on the stupid
side.
Our foyer has a funny smell and it doesn’t smell like anywhere else.
When I went pass my parents room, I even held my breath, for god’s sake.
My mother has ear like a goddam bloodhound.
Our foyer has a funny smell and it doesn’t smell like anywhere else.
When I went pass my parents room, I even held my breath, for god’s sake.
My mother has ear like a goddam bloodhound.
CHAPTER 22
#Phoebe was ostracizing the hell out of me.
Boy, she really gets something on her mind when she gets something on her mind.
Who gave you that stupid hair cut? @phoebe
She can be very snotty sometimes. #phoebe
I am sick of everyone ask me the same question. #ax
Boy, she really gets something on her mind when she gets something on her mind.
Who gave you that stupid hair cut? @phoebe
She can be very snotty sometimes. #phoebe
I am sick of everyone ask me the same question. #ax
chapter 23
Mr. Antolini is the best teacher I’ve ever
had.
She can follow anything you do and she dance damn good. #dance
Boy, my hear was beating like a bastard.
For god’s sake, me mother is coming in the room.
She can follow anything you do and she dance damn good. #dance
Boy, my hear was beating like a bastard.
For god’s sake, me mother is coming in the room.
chapter 24
Mrs. Antolini was about sixty years older
than Mr. Anotolini, but they seems to get along with very well.
I had a helluva time even finding a cab.
He was a pretty sophisticated guy and e was a pretty heavy drinker. #Mr. Antoloni
The room like that had just have a party. # Mr and Mrs Antolini
I don’t mean he wasn’t witty or anything-he was- but sometimes it gets on your nerves. #Mr. Antolini.
I had a helluva time even finding a cab.
He was a pretty sophisticated guy and e was a pretty heavy drinker. #Mr. Antoloni
The room like that had just have a party. # Mr and Mrs Antolini
I don’t mean he wasn’t witty or anything-he was- but sometimes it gets on your nerves. #Mr. Antolini.
chapter 25
I don’t know what the hell I will go.
I still had that headache and it become even worse.
What did worry me was the part about how I’d woke up and found him patting me on the head and all.
Maybe I should got my bag and gone back to his house.
Maybe h was jut patting my head just for the hell of it.
I still had that headache and it become even worse.
What did worry me was the part about how I’d woke up and found him patting me on the head and all.
Maybe I should got my bag and gone back to his house.
Maybe h was jut patting my head just for the hell of it.
chapter 26
How do you know what you’re going to do
till you do it?
D.B. isn’t as bad as rest of them but he still ask me a lot of question, too.
If you want to know the truth, I don’t know what I think about it. @D.B.
About all I know is, I sort of miss everybody, even old Stradlater and old Ackley and that goddam Maurice.
D.B. isn’t as bad as rest of them but he still ask me a lot of question, too.
If you want to know the truth, I don’t know what I think about it. @D.B.
About all I know is, I sort of miss everybody, even old Stradlater and old Ackley and that goddam Maurice.